http://www.howtocookthat.net/public_html/giant-oreo-no-bake-cheesecake-recipe/
but with NY cheesecake in the centre ;)

For my boyfriend's birthday 2 weeks later <3
i love him so much.
<3

♥

I am Hooked on Paul Magrs's Brenda and Effie series that i borrowed most of the whole series in a day- 1 never the bride (X) 2 smth borrowed (X) 3 conjugal rites ( ) 4 Hells belles ( ) 5 the bride that time forgot () (library didnt have these ): ) 6 brenda and effie forever ()

tomorrow: i dont know. should we even go to the cosfest thing? like very boring. honestly dont liek it or my area> tsk.

Food: supposed to be- water all day instead: one bite tiramisu one bite cheesecake one bowl cereal- 126+90= 216 3 eggs- 70+70+70= 210 onion and garlic= 60 cals milk- 80 cals 140+ 210 + 216+ 300 350+516 866 okay, NOMORE FOOD.

This week: work work work work. tried staying up bt failed, 4 hours FSC. they couldnt help my psychotic mum so whatever. looks like thw only thing i can do now is work study save money lray and be patient. pciked my boy from NS at tamp. then had black pepper meal. wasnt nice. mcspicy ftw. went meet mike n his gf at bugis atw supler at tcc omg went bak hotel tv next day 8plus meet them agn timhowan eat Q 3 hr will you believe it. etc. eat so much--- then a creme brulee tart half a butter muffin half cream pie one bigbig burger. ... back home. gg briskwalkong w meimei tmr- NO eating. go boonlay collect mumday cake at 2pm. Get a tutor mon- school. damn tue sch n work wed s. ch thu sch n work fri sch n cell sat beach sun i relaly hope that this term my class will have young ppl

Quitted working at Yoshinoya,
dont like it.
doing closing by myself for the outside...
clearing lobby always. 4.50/ 5 per hour for so much.
not just cashiering, helping out at kitchen, clear tables wash bowls, wash the drinks disenser clean all clear rubbish sweep mop clean stains blahblah. woman there sucks as well.
im clumsy, though fast. and when im careful im slow. the manager tells me to be fast and slow an whilst i have only two hands he expects me to get here and there quickly and immediatly, whattt.

i hope the cafe hires me. D:
7.30-4.30 pm and 10.30 to 7.30 pm de, im all ok.
God, please give me the confidence tobe able to pass the interview..
please give me the courage and confidence.. i dont want to be blur or have no confidence in whatim doing when working. please help me, Father...

FATGIRL94 :/

i was 49.2kg now i ate till 50.5 zzz oh What have i doneeee.

morning: four spoons of oatmeal and milk with hersheys strawberry sauce and a few milo chunks
3 strawberries, 8 blueberries
2pm lunch: 2 spoon garlic rice and sauce
                 breadbowl with vegetarian curry
6pm dinner: fried chilli eggplants, fried cabbage, 1/3 potato, 1 spoon rice
                 3 strawberries, 20 blueberries, 1/2 cup milk.

i can only eat once or twice a day,
below 500 calories. THATS IT ANGELICA.

YAY

So here i am. Not going to sleep tonight :D
3 major essays 1500-2000 words each with 10 references, no .coms allowed ): WITH APA FORMAT,
1 mathmatical statistics sheet 15 questions which will drive me haywire
ALL BY MONDAY 1 APRIL
aiyoyo.
the next time i get an assignment, i wont wait for 3 months and start, but straightaway.
waiting for 1 am to tick so my house will be queit And i can finally start, peacefully.

to stay up, i ate:
white toasted bread with magarine
4 1/2 crackers, 1tsp marmite
1 1/2 sliced cheese
1 small clove garlic
half boiled egg
2 tbsp achar
1/2 apple
2 slices cucumber
1/2 old town white coffee

shit. 600+ calories

this afternoon:
vegetarian bak kut teh, 1/2 rice, 1 small cup papaya juice.( 500 plus cals)
TOTAL 1200+ CALS zzzzz
only supposed consume below 600 per day :.

tomorrow at 3 pm : mushroom w pork and 1/2 rice
if buay tahan, one papaya.

i have to be 49 kg by mondayyyy!
call me crazy, but i lost 12 kg, the fact that i ate one proper meal a day and one small one. :) 
it doesnt mean i didnt eat. i do. just in smaller amounts. today was crazy though.
No eating until tomorrow afternoon at 3 plus then :)!

I feel so stressed. I should have just went to work full time first then gone to stidy the next year... Now my home is in need of money and im like working while studying. I cant even understand the whole thing. Stabs brain* Statistics in psychology is so..... I find it so irrelevent. Somehow. Tsk. Just so hard to ask my teacher. Shes imoatient and its hard to ask her things. GOD, help me. This sucks... Fail the 5 lab lessons must pay 300 plus to retake gosh -.- HOW. I hope this year ends quickly. And i can get a job as a social worker or psychologist

Chinese new year is here. Everybody is having Reunion dinner posting about it on facebook, instagram twitter etc. And then there are people who say they dislike reunion dinners. -.- Leaen to appreciate man. I want also dont have. Esp since my mums a douche and dont let anyone come over or relatives also. I wish i had a close and loving family. My grandma with dementia is so blur and is like a walking blur thing. Always depressed and conolaining. Mum is sick with OCD. Sister is just.. Living her own life at home. Dad die. Such q bad person, good thing die. I hate this kind of family. So cold and unloving. Pull them together to have fanily day etc go eat go out all also dont wan -.- t I sriously envy people who have real families Warm loving supportive. Family is more than just the DNA. Its the relationship and thats the most inportant. My aunt has invitied us (like after 6 years of not meeting or talking) to her dinner. With our cousin whom we never see for 6 years. Now i wonder if it is out of pity cos noone at hoem cares My grandads girlfriend invitied us over on sunday afternoon for that too. I feel like an outsider. Go malaysia him and her family all go together. Then me and my sis also. Feel like extra and not a part also. I feel i just belong nowhere. I am so stressed at home having to cater to my grandmas needs which gives me High blood pressure. Yeah i do love her but smtimes shes just so selfish. Instead i suck it and i takecare fo jer wel. I cannot stand it when i have done well to look after her and people sayh eh why u never help her cut her hair uh grow long already! Bad leh u YOU THINK I NO NEED GO SHOOL NO WORK IS IT. IM BUSY OK MY SISTER NEVER DO ANYTHING AT ALL WHY NEVER SAY HER. This is all my reponsibility how about her. ARGH. How come I seem like the bad person? I feel hurt about it. All just picking on me. When i was younger dad made my cousin punch me and he laughed.and so many other things also. I know hes long dead but when i rememberer it i am angry. And i know its no point.. Argh. Pthey wrre unfair to me. I hope if i ever marry ill have a family who is so close. Not like this one now. -.-

FOOD CRAVINGS.

On a diet. lost 9kg so far. OH GOSH I CRAVE FOOOOOOOD 1) ice cream 2) donuts 3) waffles 4) rice 5) manhattan fish market Fish n Co blahblahblah Only on saturday. All i can eat everyday is .. tuna, egg with no mayo or anything. just plain. or subway. food with least amt of oil. 8 MORE KG! finished mah schoolwork. watchign food videos. gosh so hungry. Friday, got my friends over to my house to bake. a brownie, rainbow cake, chocolate cake and rainbow cupcake (which tasted liek bread) ;p saturday spent with my babe <3 sunday went to church then to The institue of mental health to visit~ everyone says the choc cake is yummier than the bread liek rianbow cupcake Then went jurong east meet my so called bro~ he waited there for me for sooo long. feel bad~ Then the alst minute last nigth finishing mah homework finally. IN SERIOUS NEED OF A JOB SIGH~

When i look at my oast posts, Hw depressing i have been! Lol. Just restarted school at another area at dhouby ghaut 7 to 9 or 10pm for mon and tues Wed and thurs 1.15 to 9.00 and 5.30pm The bad hing is theres no textbook.s -.- They ask us find ourselves outside. And they ahve no odea whr we find- its like dont know dont care find urself Ass. Like that we pay so much for what... There are notes but onop of that we go library borrow t5 he textbook and photocopy frm sch Better than nothing. The teachers are ok except for one And i thought psychologists were suppsoed to be patient. *rolls eyes. Can say f word bcos smlal thing only -.- Yeah we r all humans blahblah. Dont like her anyway. No petience de Lalalala Hope this year faster ends and i can fond a job quicklyamen. . Wondering whr i should work at. I pray that God will take away my anger. I always control my anger beneath so i wont get angry but honestly igo home angry. Help me to be angerless forever. Thank u god,Amen.♥ Money problems suck. JOBBBBBBBBb...